It’s been something like a month since I came back to Saudi….
Not so happy about it
I’ve been so busy with preparations for my brothers wedding and taking care of my nieces and nephews while my sisters “their mothers” went to work
I can only get 6 hours of sleep on the weekends when their not working other days its like 4 hours there and 2 there I’m acting like a mom of five not fun I tell you
They’re cute but when you’re sleep deprived everyone is ugly
Since I came here I’ve realized that living in another country for so long has made feel like my family’s home isn’t “home” for my anymore
I don’t really have my own bed and a family of 13 members is pretty hard to live with now and we keep growing in numbers it’s getting more uncomfortable for me
I guess I got used to living in my own place and the ability to actually go out and buy the things I need instead of feeling trapped here and having to wait for a male to buy them for me
Well that’s it for the depressing daily news from Saudi
tell me about your crush tell me about your favorite make up to use tell me a secret tell me about your biggest fears tell me what you like about me tell me what you dislike about me tell me your favorite thing about yourself tell me how your day was tell me about the person you hate tell me about your pets tell me anything ask me anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Summary:
Breaking into apartments while the owners are away. Sleeping in their
beds, eating their food, using their showers and leaving before being
seen. That´s what you do. A loner, a wanderer, a human ghost, call it
whatever you want. You come and go, and no one notices. That, until Kim
Taehyung returns home before expected.
Word count: 10.324
Warnings: very subtle dissociation.
I programmed this to be posted so hopefully it works!
This fic is going to be long , angsty and smutty but please be patient
I´m very nervous about this chapter
Even if
things are changing, I feel the exact same way as I felt yesterday. Unsure
about what is going to happen next, a bunch of questions accumulated on the tip
of my tongue. The rain has stopped now, but the air is still humid and making
my throat dry. I´m munching some mints right now, because I don´t want to lose
my voice, something that happens to me often if I catch a cold. As I lay on the
couch, I can´t help but feel lost, even though I´m doing my best and, if it
weren´t for Taehyung´s mood swings, I would feel like it´s all useless. As if
I´m just here like I could be anywhere else.
Because,
sometimes it´s hard to live with someone as expressionless as him. I don´t want
to complain out loud, but Taehyung´s behavior is a bit odd these days, or maybe
mine is. I would wake up and jump in my sit when I would see him around
convinced he had to be at work instead, would have to get more ramen packages
because now he was eating a bit more and I would suddenly open the larder only
to find it empty. Other than that, showering, eating, he was like a ghost. He
either stayed still or moved too much, like lightning. And he slept. He slept a
lot, a very unhealthy number of hours lying in bed with his eyes shut. And it
worried me that he was feeling so upset he either wanted to stay there forever
or move so fast he couldn´t even think straight.
Now I can finally write a comment, first I was so nervous when they were breaking into the house for that whole part I had my hand on my heart.
I have a bad feeling about that painting and that house and I’m pretty sure that Tea is holding back his feelings the way he worrys about y/n shows how much he cares about her. He feels like a puppy that has been hurt his whole life and when a day came and he protected someone he loves bad shit happend. I keep getting Tea“stigme” vib here
And for y/n who ever that basterd that caused the scure I hope the burn in hell
there is still so much mystery I need some deep ass thinking time
Guys, I’m not going to ask for your prayers - I myself am not religious, but I am going to ask you to signal boost this. Marawi City in the Philippines has been invaded by ISIS, they are bombing the city and a school zone, and setting detainees free from prisons.
They say that this is a jihad, but anyone who even has a small understanding of Islam knows that Islam is not violent.
This is terrorism.
The world needs to know.
Update 1: They’re exchanging fire from both sides. Electricity is down. Friends are reporting that ISIS members are spotted in the schools and are giving them a few minutes to evacuate before they take over. Filipino media is silent.
Update 2: Christian teachers are being held hostage.
Update 3: Hospital staff being detained, ISIS flag has been raised in the city hospital. The fighting occurred not in the outskirts of Marawi, but on its streets, around the city hall and public market.
I’m sorry, I’m stringing together what information my friends are still giving me. I don’t know how long they can keep this up - a lot of them are saying that their phones are dying.
Update 4: Armed Forces of the Philippines telling people to go underground, airstrikes coming. Mortars are being prepared too.
UPDATE 5: The Philippine President and his family are in Russia. The Palace remains silent. The military is trying to invalidate ground reports to cover up their fuckups.
UPDATE 6: Philippine National Police and Armed Forces of the Philippines are not responding or have deployed extremely delayed support, according to the Marawi City Mayor in a phone interview.
UPDATE 7: CNN Philippines has a livestream covering the entire thing, eyewitness reports are in, Military is still saying “we’re in full control” when that’s obviously not the case.
UPDATE 8: reports in that terrorists are targeting cell towers now.
UPDATE 9: GENERALS POINTING FINGERS AT EACH OTHER INSTEAD OF ACTUALLY TRYING TO HELP PEOPLE.
UPDATE 10: ARMED FORCES STILL LYING ABOUT THE SCALE OF THIS ATTACK. THEY SAY 15 MEN, WHEN ALL CORRESPONDENTS ARE SAYING THERE ARE AT LEAST 200.
UPDATE 11: generals trivializing the situation, saying “they don’t feel like it’ll last the night,” when people are literally saying that the fighting still continues. CNN just cut their livestream, will be back in 30 minutes, most are being left in the dark about what’s going on.
at this point, i’m at a loss for words. most friends have stopped updating 30 minutes ago. sporadic updates remain.
i am terrified. our country’s history with martial law is dark, and i never thought i’d live to see this day.
MARAWI CITY IS A MUSLIM DOMINANT CITY. THESE TERRORISTS PEOPLE ARE ATTACKING MUSLIMS RIGHT BEFORE RAMADAN. SHUT THE FUCK UP. THIS IS NOT ABOUT ISLAM BEING EVIL. ISLAM IS NOT EVIL. PEOPLE ARE EVIL.
IDEOLOGIES, GOOD OR BAD, ARE ONLY IDEOLOGIES UNTIL SOMEONE DECIDES TO ACT ON THEM. YOUR ISLAMOPHOBIA IS DISGUSTING.
